mega nervous

the first practice for JOINMUN is gonna start next Thursday!

I'll be in a relationship with speech, debate, ROP, papers etc etc for the next 2 months.

gonna have the practice twice a week with the debater and I wish I could survive through the practice!

this newbie seems need a lot of help :s

this broken-English-speaker needs a lot of help to improve her English.

surrounded by a lot of people who have a great ability in speaking English sometime motivated me but sometime it successfully made me down or have no confidence to speak.

I know that this is not good but this is the true feeling that I feel right know.

being nervous and excited at the same time make my heart beats faster.

and today, I will have my focus group discussion for the next AIESEC selection in UNPAD-DU. wish me luck to pass this kind of selection!

thank god, I made it

I've been so curious with the things that made some of my friends being addicted to called MUN or model united nations. one of my friend said to me that he'll join a lot of MUN as many as he can, another friend of mine said, "I wish that I could make money from MUN because I love MUN so bad."

driven by my curiosity, I brave myself to register myself as the delegates for Jogja International MUN. I choose general assembly as my first choice because I love the topic that will be discussed later on the forum and I choose G20 as my second choice.

honestly, I want to register myself as the Arab League committee because the international chairman of Arab league is soooooo good looking. *blushed* but unfortunately, I don't have any interest to solve lot of problems that happen in middle east area.

I did the online registration and I sent the registration form plus my motivation letter on the closing day and I have no hard feeling on it. If I am accepted, it would be great but if not, it doesn't matter and I'll be fine as fine as always.

the JoInMUN committee said that the announcement for the accepted applicant will be announced on Sunday, March 11. On the sunday morning, I open their official website to check the announcement but they haven't posted it yet so I have to wait.

I open their official site every second to check if the announcement has been posted but till the night come, the committee haven't published any announcement.

so I decided to sleep because I feel little bit sick because of the killer monthly period.

before I sleep, I prayed to God, I said okay God, if you are allowing me to join this event, I'll be so thankful, if you're not allowing me so it's okay. just give the best for me.

this morning, as usual, I checked my blackberry. just checked my BBM and twitter as if I got some messages or some mentions.

I read my twitter timeline, while I am reading the twitter timeline, I saw my friend's twitter. he just mentioned some of my friends and he said that he was so thankful because of he will attend JOINMUN.

how I feel was O God, I think I am failed for JOINMUN. then I clicked the twitlonger link on my friend's twit because of my 'keponess' and I really want to know who will be the delegates of UNPAR in JOINMUN. and tadaa he mentioned me too! he mentioned my name on his twit! because of the twitlonger, my name which been mentioned, not show up in my mention page.

he said that we will represent UNPAR for JOINMUN and after I saw it I just feel so thankful to God!

and I am accepted in general assembly committee! *uber happy!* and another name just shocked me too. Marvin was accepted as the general assembly committee and my junior named Nuel accepted as GA committee too.

I have no brave to imagine what will happen if Marvin, Nuel, and I together in one committee. it'll be a mega fail! we will never stop giving jokes each other. but in other side I wish that I can give my best to my first MUN that I am participated in.

wish me luck, friends :)